I made a plan that includes several things I would do during this Christmas holiday to find emotions.

Finding emotions with clear purposes (following the plan) had provided me a sense of contrived. It seems like I deliberately broke my calmness to find stimulation.

However, no matter how I pretended that I am excited while singing Karaoke or how I forced myself while playing cards game with schoolmates, I still didn’t feel the surge of emotion.

Maybe, I am calm by nature.

I want to make artwork that conveys the contrast of the calmness of my inside and my energetic and lively outside.

I called this artwork — Contrast