Project concept introduction
项目概念介绍
这本手绘的绘本的灵感来源自我这学期报名的文学社团，我们在定期末项目的写作主题时，选择了“酒馆”这个主题。
当我听到“酒馆”这个词的时候，我首先想到的是它作为一个地点，是很有包容性的，是因为在我的印象中酒馆会来很多很多不同的的人。昏暗的光线和噪音下可以隐藏很多东西。
The inspiration for this hand-drawn picture book comes from the literary club I signed up for this semester. We chose the theme of “tavern” when deciding the theme of our regular final project.
When I hear the word “tavern”, the first thing that comes to my mind is that as a place, it is very inclusive, because I have the impression that pubs come to many, many different people. Dim light and noises can hide a lot of things.
酒馆地点的特殊性，很大程度上给予了我灵感.
I was largely inspired by the uniqueness of the pub as a location.
Content abstract
内容简介
A girl jumped off a building to commit suicide, through her lifetime record, her mother use the butterfly effect to kill the four sinners in the same pub with a bomb.
Four sinners
Sexual harassment性骚扰
School violence校园暴力
Domestic violence家庭暴力
Accomplice帮凶
这个故事中，暴力带给主角的伤害是巨大的。不仅仅让经受暴力的人失去生命，也让她的家人痛苦不已。
这也是为什么这个故事的名字会叫做Love Of Despair，因为荼蘼花的话语便是绝望的爱，当荼蘼花绽放的时候，代表春天也已经过去了.
In this story, violence does great harm to the main character. Not only did the victim lose her life, but her family suffered as well.
That’s why the name of this story is called Love Of Despair, because the words bloomed by the 荼蘼花 are the despair of love. When the 荼蘼花 blooms, it means that spring has passed.
Content analysis
内容分析
Material：
pracrylic paint
Mark pen
Pen.
丙烯颜料的厚度能更好的体现主角哈雅自杀坠楼时喷射出来的血迹，也能让场景更有代入感
The thickness of the acrylic paint can better reflect the blood spouted by Haya when she falls from the building. It makes the scene feel more immersing as well.
Material：
Mark pen
Pen.
Highlight pen
Solid glue
女儿的死亡让母亲的眼中只有血色的复仇，这也是为什么窗外的景象是红色和代表复仇的黑百合。墙上的海报借鉴的是“蝴蝶效应”这部片子的海报设计，也是本书的另一大主题
母亲的形象用立体角粘在画面中，立体的形象更有旁观者的感觉。
The death of her daughter left the mother with only bloody revenge in her eyes, which is why the scene outside the window was red and full with black lilies representing revenge. The poster on the wall is a reference to the poster design of the film “Butterfly Effect”, which is another major theme of this book.
The image of the mother is stuck in the picture with a solid glue, and the three-dimensional piece has the feeling of a bystander.
Material:
Hemp rope
Solid glue
The toilet paper
Mark pen
Pen.
Paper of different texture
The colored paper tape
这张图中用一根麻绳穿起来所有导致蝴蝶效应发生的道具，这也是母亲看到蝴蝶效应伤害自己之后得到了复仇作案的灵感。
所有的道具都是3D的，使用了不同的材料让场景更加立体，互动性更强
In this picture, a piece of twine is used to thread all the props that cause the butterfly effect to happen, which is also the inspiration for the mother to commit the crime after she saw the butterfly effect hurt herself.
All the props are 3D, and different materials are used to make the scene more three-dimensional and interactive
Material：
Solid glue
Mark pen
Pen
被注释的氛围感是这张图所要表达的重点，死去的女儿拿着的气球和象征复仇的黑百合中间，都是一只只睁着的眼睛。他们仿佛在审视罪恶。
这和我上一个项目中做的植物+被监控的调查所结合
The annotated atmosphere is the key point of this picture. There are open eyes between the balloon held by the dead daughter and the black lily symbolizing revenge. It was as if they were looking at sinners.
This was combined with a plant + monitored survey I did on my last project.
Material:
Pen.
Highlight pen
Mark pen
当母亲发现这本日记的时候，可以通过它看见被恐惧包围的女儿
When the mother found this diary, she could see her daughter surrounded by fear through it
Material：
Hemp rope
Mark pen
Pen.
这幅画的重点是被包围的恐惧感和无力感。四周的霸凌者们和黑色的背景都加重了这种氛围感
空气中无形的线仿佛勒紧了受害者，她的嘴被封住了也无法求助，因为无人在意
这些隐形的信息都被我用直接的形式展现在了画面中。
The focus of this painting is on the fear and powerlessness of being surrounded. The bullies and the dark background had all add to the atmosphere
Invisible lines in the air seemed to tighten the victim, her mouth was sealed and she could not say help because no one cares.
This invisible information are displayed in the picture by me in a direct form
Material:
Mark pen
Pen.
This picture focuses on sexual harassment.
The books the man held in his hands for lessons could no longer cover up his secret crimes, so the blood was already flowing. And his body was covered with black lilies. This is the picture in the mother’s mind after hearing the girl’s words.
Material：
Mark Pen
pen
这张图的重点是家暴。
藏在花朵中的匕首和皮带，都是母亲从丈夫那里收到的“礼物”
This picture focuses on domestic violence.
The dagger and belt hidden in the flower were “gifts” the mother had received from her husband
Material：
Hemp rope
Solid glue
Mark pen
pen
Highlight pen
母亲的双眼已经被代表复仇的花朵蒙住了，她的四周全是假面和一条条关系线。但是她手中依然捧着照亮真相的蜡烛
所有隐藏的信息都被直接的在画面中展现了出来
The mother’s eyes had been blinded by the flowers of revenge, and she was surrounded by masks and relationship lines. But she still holds a candle that illuminates the truth
All the hidden information is directly displayed in the picture
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后面是作案的过程，可以参考线上阅读
最终黑百合变成了茶靡花，代表妈妈虽然复仇成功，但女儿却再也回不来了
The following is the process of committing the crime, you can refer to the online reading
In the end, the black lily becomes a chami flower, representing although the mother finish her revenge, her daughter will never come back